ffk

haiz! duno wat happen...
tis week seem like all nt smoothly~
all FAILED!!!
shit!
damn pekcek lor...
keep giv ppl ffk..
30hr famine...
trip...
n i duno will happen wat d...
bt i hope dunwan happen d =(
nobody beside me whn i moody too...
whr all my so call FRIENDS go?
haiz...
i totally hav no idea...
1st time whn i m in like  tis de situation n no1 beside me...
sighhhhhhhhhhh!
bt yst 1st shopping v mummy till veli happy~
bought smthing for myself too~

对不起

对不起,妈咪...

那天是我太冲动...

太不会想了...

是最不理智的做法...

其实我拥有一个很幸福很幸福的家....

是我自己不会珍惜...

是我自己生在福中不知福...

我很自私...

我只想到自己...

没有想到你对我的付出，关心和真心....

对不起.........

让那些三姑六婆来伤害你!

那些总是喜欢破坏人家幸福家庭的三姑六婆!

 喜欢乘虚而入的三姑六婆!

愿你们这些三姑六婆会过意得去!

你们会得到你们应有的东西的!!!!!!!!!!!

妈咪,真的很对不起....

看来我只能说对不起...

除了对不起还是对不起....

而我也知道我这些的对不起...

并完全不能弥补不了我所对你的伤害....

真的很对不起...

从现在开始我不会再对你做出会伤害你的事了...

我发誓!!!

谢谢你，妈咪...

 你一辈子都是我的妈咪...

最伟大的妈咪...

Sacrifice

hey~
next week will b my pt2...
although i luk ok o normal nw...
bt i feel reali stress...
cuz my pt1 such "NICE" result...
so, i nit 2 show out wat i suppose 2 show lar...
LOL!
so i will b hardworking than last time d...
mayb i will b lazy smtimes...
bt i will try motivate myself to achieve my target!!!
cuz tis hav 2 put in all my effortssssssss...
if nt i sure will regret again :p
so tat..i decided 2 sacrifice smting...
i edi sacrificied 4 my love~
nw hav 2 sacrifice 4 my lovely FACEBOOK!!!!
tell u honestly..
although i didnt plg games...
bt i reali addicted 2 it d...
bt i edi decided 2 sacrifice U!!!!!
so every1...
if wan find me...
pls find me thru fond lar k...
i will disappear 4 while till i finish my pt2 ya!!!
bye n take k every1~

PT1

haiz!!!
damn dissapointed on myself!!!!!
i FAIL all my PT1!!!!
tis onli PT1...
n i gt SUCKS marks!!!
WT!!!!!!
bcuz all the result i gt...
i started worry...
moody...
n giv up....
cuz i lost my direction d...
i reali never get such LOW marks in my test
since i start my study life...
i reali cant forgiv myself at all!
wat can i do?
who can save me?
i reali duno wat happening on my tis 3 papers!
tis is my onli last chance 2 PASS tis exam....
i reali cant miss it!!!
if nt...
all will b wasted!!!
i DUNWAN!!!!!!
i cant face it if i cant do it!
i will CRAZY n so so so so MAD!!!!
1st time i cry 4 my exam result oso...
it shouldnt happen de...
i reali cant face it T.T
i wont forgiv myself frm nw on!!!!!!!!
i will try torture myself till i complete my study!!!!
it is my future...
i cant DESTROY my future!!!!
CANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16.03.2011

erm...
2day wake up gt bit weird weird de...
yst reali didnt received any msg frm u d...
i tink 2 more months d...
everyday wake up...
my fond will full of yr msgs...
n its so sweet n warm...
bt nw no more ler...
last time, whn wake up in the morning...
i tink i received mani msgs is normal de...
bt is juz i tink lar...
nw reali ENDED d!!!
wake up!!!!
mayb as u wish...
u say wont find me anymore d rite...
so should i happy 4 u?
CONGRATZ 2 u ba~

i HATE ppl who giving me high hope
den suddenly DESTROY tat hope as well
=(
T.T

15.03.2011

男：分手吧~
女：分就分!!!
你知道么，其實女生真的很難受。
表面上偽裝自己很堅強，內心深受的痛你不懂。
actually, if the situation reverse...
gals r oso hurt...
juz tat she wont let ppl knw ba~
everytime...whn i lost it d...
onli i will appreciate it...
bt all r too late d rite....
since last time till nw oso never change b4...
haiz....
i reali done mani wrong n regret de things bcuz of tis...
whn i can correct it T.T
for me~
blog = dairy
bt den...
i juz will blogging whn i m no mood o unhappy...
tis mayb can release something ba i tink...
bt nwadays i tink i reali duno hw 2 manage STRESS d..
last time i will release easily...
bt nw...the situation changed d ....
i hav no better idea 2 solve it d...
erhemmmmmm...
start frm 2day...
i decided 2 study hard d....
i tink i wont involve in LOVE till i finish study ler..
cuz i cant handle so mani things in the same time d...
i started lost my direction...
btw... thx 4 tis few days acc me de ppl~
without u all...
i tink i reali will collapse....
mayb u all tink i didnt express my mind n words...
bt den...mayb i use 2 it d....
tat's the way i protect myself =)
dunit worry me d...
i hav 2 stand up independently d....
n dunit help d lar...
cuz i believe if reali gt heart, den everything still might 2 b continue...
bt if reali wan giv up, i hav ntg 2 say o blame d rite...
juz...nw i feel...
i nw reali like dun hav ppl who can reali share heart de friends d...
last time, i still thought i hav lot...
bt nw i feel like no d....
i dunlike college life!!!
i LOVE secondary sch's life~
bt as i say...
once it is pass, den cant return bak d....
i hav no any choices d...
hav 2 lo forward oso...
so cheer up ba...
gflee!!!!! ^.^

14.03.2011

haiz...
2day i reali feel the pain d...
bt...
i still can turn bak?
i tink nt ba...
cuz u oso giv up d...
haiz....
hope tis feeling can go smoothly...
i duno wat i can do nw..
juz feel heart pain!
bt i cant do anything ler~
cuz all is my fault!
even i cant blame any1 oso right nw!
haiz..................
2day whn i wake up...
i feel my eyes veli PAIN!
n whn once i meet the sun...
i feel whole ppl veli pening...
duno wat's wrong oso...
haiz...........
2day i plan 2 giv valantine's present...
bt all is over d...
so juz forgiv it ba....
mayb is good 4 u...
cuz i hav no anything can let u think against me d...
i will disappear in yr life...
n the STAR!!!
those stars sure hav meaning 1...
once the star is given 2 me...
den it means wat u wan 2 b means n represent all...
i will keep it nicely~
cuz tis is the 1st time ppl do 4 me oso...
so pls dun say those star no others meaning ler...
thx~

12.03.2011

2day i edi SICK!!!

the whole week i sick n cant recover...

everynight cant sleep well oso...

keep wake up...

n i feel tat my health start gt problem d...

bt i nt dare 2 tell my parents...

i tink is bcuz of stress...

stress frm mani mani things...

the main i tink is my STUDY!!!

tis sem i take 3 papers...

better than last sem 4 papers...

bt seen tat tis sem r much much tough than last sem...

1st exam...

i edi failed d...

n i oso didnt get such low marks since my study life started...

i reali get shock of it...

mayb is i too confident on myself d...

at least pass...

nw i onli knw i demand 4 my my result is HIGH!!!

n nw i hav 2 giv up ONE!

tat is LOVE~

i tink i hav 2 study hard 1st onli can lead me 2 a better n brighter future...

so tat...

all is MY problem...NOT yrs~

erm...i hope u dun too blame yrself...

n promise tat v still is friends...

n let us nw study hard 1st...

as u say...

tis might b a ordeal o an obstacle ba...

v hav 2 wake up d..

forever means v hav the power 2 survive with ourselves energy ba...

tat onli can call FOREVER n EVER!!!!

4 sure...NOT nw!

so tat...i hope v nit 2 focus in study 1st...

so tat v can call wat tat FOREVER means 2 it rite...

i knw u reali treat me veli good...

among all my bf...u treat me the most good!

mayb is timing n i duno hw 2 appreciate it...

i knw i wont get such a good de u in my future d...

thx 4 acc in those days~

i hope u wont escape frm me...

n v still FRIEND!!!

n GAMBATEH in our study & life ba!!!!!!

Valentine~

yea~

14.02.2011

yst was valentine~

i hav a GREAT valentine!!!!

frenzy gang!!!

i love u all~

i find bak wat the friends's feeling bak...

i reali veli enjoy yst's event...

n appreciated tat i gt mani pressent wor...

till my hand cant even gt all...

hw happy m i!!!

n gt reali mani choc!!!!

although is my beloved!!!

bt i tink u all gonna c a 'DORAEMON' nt longer d!!!

hahaz :p

thx 4 who r preparing all those present v

FULLY heart ya =)

tis is the 1st time i celebrate my valentine

till so PROUD!!!!

so HAPPY!!!

so EXCITED!!!!

thx lot ya all my beloved ^.^

WORST

i tink 2day is the 1st WORST day in 2011...

haiz!!!

damn mani bad things happen...

1st is hx kena BIG angpau b4 CNY...

i take quite a time 2 recover it...

who knows tat 2nd bad things cm so fast...

izzit tat i shouldnt put my heart so fast...

the faster den the more i hurt rite?

not juz once!

everytime is the same!!!

whn i getting serious 2 it...

den the things i care will run away frm me the faster they could...

wat can i do 4 it?

i reali hav no any idea on it...

i m such tired of tis kind of LOVE!!!

i knw i m selfish...

so should i b ALONE till the end?

is tat the most perfect ending?

do u satisfied of tis situation?

i reali speechless of tis kind of life..

it's reali stupid!

sometimes i feel like juz b a stupid mayb is the best choice...

stupid as nobody hav...

wat oso duno...

juz live in my own world...

i m damn selfish..

i oways make ppl sad...

make ppl worry bout me onli...

bt i duno hw 2 care ppl...

so....

dun giv me any gud illusion 2 me!!!

i will get lost in it...

den i might b hurt ppl n me oso...

pls.....

i reali so hurt edi....

dun make b reali phobia of it...

n den no dare touch it anymore k?

Dream

yst night my mood nt reali gud...
mayb can say is bad ba...
i HATE ppl make me angry..
bt duno wat i angry for!!!
bt.......
watever lar...
i had ntg do 2 it oso rite...
yst whole night...
i didnt sleep well...
whole nitez feel like didnt sleep too...
n in the BLUR BLUR situation till i wake up...
erm...
bt duno y...
yst i had a nice n sweet dream...
tat dream hav me, u n WOODY zai zai...
it reali was a reali nice n sweet...
i had promise 2 myself....
my life wont hav u d...
n long time i didnt tink of it d...
bt duno y yst suddenly dream of it...
btw, i m aware tat..
tat onli a DREAM...
it WONT happen in the realistic life...
so i should awake...
bt duno y...
my mood till nw oso haven recover...
hope tat tis mood wont exist too long!!!

2011

haiz...
2day reali is a quite BAD day...
2day whn i woke up...
i received a msg...
tat msg reali make my day bcm WORST...
firstly, i asking u lot question...
den u say i nt trust u rite...
u can tink of my feeling?
v oways didnt told ecah others any things oso...
den i saw mani things tat make me UNBELIEVEABLE...
bt den u tink tat i reali annoying rite...
u oso doesnt luk like wanna answer my ques...
waiting u find me again after 2hrs...
bt den u reali not find me...
den i reply u once again...
after u reply me...
bt den till nw u oso didnt find me anymore...
mayb as wat i tink...
u not care as i tink so much...
mayb juz till friends status onli....
if juz like wat i say n tink...
den i reali hav ntg 2 say...
mayb as i promised as i say last time...
after i knw u r recover....
u will hav a NEW life...
den i will let u go as u wan oso...
juz let u&me gt a totally NEW brand year...
take k my dearest~
it will not easy 2 4get u...
i will keep u in the deepest in my heart..
let it b MEMORIES...
bye~